as the movie, the start always come with that, long time ago. it's really a long time to find those ones inside, because, it's hard and pain.
i can't talk about that stablely untill today. let's see.
there must be a girl who taught me how to get mature, and the payment is four years' waiting and confusing. i try to find the way out in the darkness that i found. long, longly and cool is the experience that a man had to have in that age i think. by the way, i have found this BBS and stay with it in the period.
i have knew lots of friends here and we still keep in touch. of course, just few persons now. people are used to keep silence here due to their ages in my opinion, they are not them at all. at least, the mind and mood was no longer as before.
my mind is damn crazy when i try to recall these things. as i said before, we grow up when we put down. but pick them up will drive people to the hell. fuck off the bloody shit days.
we are not us, and we are losing the place, like here. these ones who saw the our-sky building-up has gone, even someones still here, only the soul left, not the whole.
i really miss them, even the people i don't fermilar with, but as least, i know them, and they gave the life and warm to the sky.
the truth is, we have to go, the life will push me to go. i don't wanna to left because, i don't wanna loss these days no matter it's happy or painfull, that 's part of my life, that's my youngs.
